noise

don't shout, 
i can hear but i couldn't listen.

don't shout,
it creates strong repellent, within.

don't shout,
shouts terrifies me.

and,
it scares me the most, 
when i'm the one who's shouting.

i did shout, when i was young.
i guess i was ten or eleven?
it felt as if i had all the rights to do so.
to be so, loud.
but it felt so wrong.

so i stopped.

these days,
i never shout. not literally.
i could have but i didn't.
cause i know how much it hurt.

so i didn't shout,
i create silence instead.
i kept doing it,
that its already become a habit.

i'm comfortable, with my silence.
but i knew i made people uncomfortable,
when they started to ask "why are you so quiet?"

i, simply has nothing to say.

i find nothingness is so loud, that it make noise in my speech.
not simply a sound,
but noise.

even worse, a misunderstood noise.

can we all, only speak the good, 
and reduce the noise?
can we all, truly converse?

i hope we all can.

i'm not saying that we should all be quiet. no.
it's not wrong to be loud,
speak whatever, as long as it is peaceful.

because people created silence,
not to simply hear, but to listen.

i'm a listener,
and there's certain thing i will never understand,
no matter how much i listen.
but without the noise,
i'm definitely a better listener.

so speak, don't shout.





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