awake

its 3.53am here. i don't know what on earth am i still doing at this hour. i didn't even stay up this late to study back then. well, i have no class to attend tomorrow, or the day after tomorrow, or i guess maybe ill never ever attend any classes again? ever.?

well imma bit relieved to know that, but i am also a bit scared. actually a lot. you know, that uncertain feeling of what will comes next? i think i mentioned this in my previous post. well i'm not as much worried as i was before.

i'm thinking of furthering masters, but i think i should work first to gain experience. but then, what if i don't get any job? should i open up a business? (urgh but i think i'm bad at business).

plus by next year i will be 25 y o. i was like, really? that fast?

2016. what will be happening to me? where will i be? this thoughts in my head are endless.

oh yes, mom mentioned that if my brother's getting married next year, why not if i get married too then we could make it a joint wedding ceremony. urgh momm -_- i don't even have anyone to be married to. plus i am currently jobless. duhh mom -_- she said many people even got married while studying. well, i agree. i'm not against it. if their time has come then why not? marriage means responsibility though. a HUGE responsibility. and to me marriage is like, moving mountains.

yeah i saw all these wedding invitations and friends getting their first child and such but i'm still cool about it. well some people've found their other half sooner and some just don't. what's the hurry anyway? (err mom gonna kill me if she knows this hahaha).

not that i didn't think about it at all,
it's just that i have so much other things in my head right now other than that.

i'm not waiting for anyone.

but i'm not moving, for my own sake.





btw, this cover is not bad.





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