spin like a racket

Klulah pemikiran tu mcm nyamuk, sembur ridsect msti mati terus kan?

I’ll spray more ridsect in my room. Yeah.

But I rarely got bitten.

Never need a ridsect before.

Mungkin darah pahit kot.

Lagipon memang hati kering pn kan. T.T

Jap, musim hujan kan memang xde nyamuk?

Whats with me? I guess I’m becoming an extreme nature lover now.

I am okay. Yes yes. I am okay and totally fine. yeah sure.

resolusi tahun baru: membuat keputusan untuk berborak borak dengan ikan dalam balang next sem. Yes. Ikan kecik 3 ekor, satu balang bulat. Welcome to the family. If I don’t have a roommate, I guess I need a living creature in my room. Yes yes that would be a good idea. Gonna be a mummy to three kiddo, its gonna be exciting… we can have study group together as well. haha marni da weng weng weng. She’ll be okay in 5min. yeah. Maybe 10 or 50? 1 day? 1 week? 1 year? Yeah just need some time to settle down. Oh why on earth am I supposed to do this? Marni., don’t be like that ok. Very2 not nice. Okay. I accept what happened to me but there at times I just can’t handle it. I am still a human btw.

Marni wake up! Wake up! Life is a reality.

Now its gonna be Marni Nymoz de Macho

What? Naaah.. bad idea. bad idea.

Nymoz: I created this during form 4. And I still like it.

I once start writing to motivate myself. Then I write when I am sad to cheer myself up. I write when I found a nice quote. I write when I am mad. I write when I think I have something nice to share that I got from taklim or from a book I read or maybe articles. I write when I feel like expressing something. Well though most of the time it doesn’t sound like fully expressed. The real reason I made a blog because I want to share something interesting about ‘changing’. Something that would be useful. more like a da’wah through the net. Then it rather become a personal blog. Life became busy and I wrote less. At one point I thought I’m gonna abandon you forever. Continue with my life. But today I opened an old book. Things that I wrote when I’m in form5. I always thought that I once a tougher person before. I guess I was wrong. I write things that will motivate me at all times when I feel like I’m not progressing in my study, in my agama. I forgot. That God have made me a stronger person.

The past hasn’t made you a stronger person marni, but the tests have been less.

When you grow older, the tests grow bigger, and you come to know what real life is all about. In any way, you’ll become stronger.

“Aku mau mendampingi dirimu, aku mahu cintai kekuranganmu” pandai btol composer buat lagu en. Sweet gile klu husband ckp mcm ni. Haha. not gonna happen. Sudahlah marni, pergi belajar. -.-“

I was born to like music. Well maybe I’m the one who make the interest go bigger at the first place. I just love nice melody. And meaningful lyrics. Meaningful words.

“senang jadi awak sebab awk mmg naturally xske dengar lagu” I once said to my best friend farehah in high school.

When I grow older I found that music is never a crime anyway. It’s the way you handle it.

And I love opick, maher zain and the latest sami yusuf . their songs sound sincere to me J and it helps me to remember Allah in a fun way. I once not really into nasheed. I only love Raihan at that time. It changes when I first listen to dawud wharnsby ali if I’m not mistaken. But I still listen to what I used to listen. Maybe just a bit less than before.

See? When you grow older, you really understand things better.

Even Allah, Islam, parents, family, humans, feelings and perhaps love.

Only time is capable to teach human real things in life. when we choose to see. When we choose to understand. When we choose to figure out.

Will I start writing the old style again? Well I need to think about that first. Haha.

insyaAllah if the ‘rajin’ mood appear out of nowhere. Will do write.

“Ku takkan pernah cuba berhenti, langkahku mencari Cinta”- lagu ‘akan ku jumpa’ ni best ble terfikir yg mencari Allah, Islam dan keikhlasan dalam hati tu perjalanan yg panjang dan x mudah kan? “Rasa kecewa ada bila kaki penat berlari, namun yakin ku kau kan ku temui..” Sungguh bermakna.

“kan ku cari sampai hujung dunia”

When it comes to love song, I twist my mind and ubah lagu tu kpd lagu Cinta kpd Tuhan.

Mencari cinta tuhan perjalanan nya tiada henti hingga ke hujung sudut bumi. Mengajar manusia untuk tak berhenti. Allah nak manusia berusaha. Sebab kita mampu! Oo yeah.

Nk msk 20 da? Omg. Rase mcm bru lpas amik spm je. Da tua akhirnya.. nk kawen umo brp marni? Ntahlaaa…. Aaaa. Why can’t I just be innocent. Mcm kanak2 xya pk pape. Hahahahahahaha. Nevertheless I think too much. Ok stop. ok buat masa ni sy bcadang untuk blaja. fokus. Welcome back terminator. Upgraded version. Civil Engineering? Here I come~~

Yeah. Yeah. Sprinter, strider, terminator. Call yourself whatever. Step ahead marni, and the world will change. Maybe.

I use my left foot more than my right foot. And I have a s-shape spine. I have spine deformity. I’m not perfectly healthy. I’m not perfect. Yeah. I’m abnormal. It’s the way I am. And I’m happy. I’m thankful that I’m alive. And I need Allah in my life.

p/s: If life is a tragic story, I must be the bad character right. Yeah I’m cruel. Hate me.